Wednesday

Buuuuuuullshit.

Hiiiii :). Quick update. I've been having a lot of thoughts goign on in my head and I've just been having an urge to scribble it all down.. for some reason the thought of typing it all in my blog never came up. I've been trying to write songs earlier just now, just for the sake of trying something new.. I thought expressing what I'm feeling in a form of a song would be a pretty kickass idea.. but just remind me next time never to be an artist. Because I can't write for shit. So I just started doodling on a piece of paper instead.. very angry doodles! I felt like a goth.. \m/!

Nothing interesting for you guys to read today, I'm sorry to say that there isn't going to be any random posts about strange signs around the world or fast food reality checks.. It's going to be one of those days where I'd just blab on about.. well.. things that would not concern you whatsoever.. haha so it's all for me maan.

I woke up this morning, and I felt haaapy. hehe. Whether it was the rain, or just another good feeling about not having to go to school.. it felt refreshing. Nothing beats a great kickstart to a day. Moments like these always make me feel so grateful for everything I've got, and I know it everyday. Yet only days like these would actually make me feel "weeeee" about it all.. y'know what I'm saying? hahaha probably not.. ok, let's put it this way..

Spongebob works for the Krusty Krabs.
He loves his work because he loves flippin patties..
He's always happy with his job
Not until he gets fired, will he actually realise how much he loved that job
He starts talking to his pet snail about losing his job and how lucky he was for Mr. Krabs to hire him at the first place (Like I'm doing now. Except I dont' have a pet snail.. Instead I have a blog. holy shit.. how geekafied does that sound?)
Because face it, Spongebob is a dumbass..

Perhaps that'd make it clearer?? Maybe?? Sorta?? You know where I'm going with this?? I know.. I'm not very good with examples either hahaha.. so that's two things I have to scrap off my ambition list; an artist and an example maker. SIGH how am I ever going to live in this world?! haha.

I've got the greatest batch of friends ever (not the greatest man. but you catch my drift), and a family that not until recently have I realised how much they've been there for me.. I probably have one of the best brothers ever that I absolutely look up to as a role model, and a sister that I just want to be like when I'm older.. not exactly haha she's a bit of a control freak.. let's hope I won't turn out exactly like her. Doesn't look it, but I reckon my parents are spoiling me haha and how I wish they hadn't. But I love my family, especially my parents :) I appreciate every long lecture my father gives me, because in that amount of time, I can learn so much from him.

Holyshit. I just read that over and I just realised how emotional that sounds. It's like something out of a suicidal note.. I am not feeling like myself tonight haha. And it's good :) I think feeling like this every once in awhile is great.

Y'know, I probably have to say that one of the greatest feelings anyone could ever experience is having someone to love and knowing that the person loves you too. I KNOW THIS SOUNDS CHEESY OK, but bare with me! hehe. (you sad, sad person! I can't believe you're actually reading this! I'm putting a whole bucket load of bullshit in your head right now, hahaha) but even then, when things dont' work out with that special someone, it's great to know that you have your family and friends, and god damnit it isn't the end of the world. Why dont' you put yourself in an African's feet hah?! See how' you'd be sufferin then.. Running around scavangin for food.. tisk.. hahaha ok no I'm joking. But yerh,

it's 4am in the morning and I doin't even know what I'm typing.. like I said man, a whole lot of bullshit. Just like how life is filled wid a whole lot of bullshit, but live with it because you know that you're even lucky to be here. Dont tell me that your'e not lucky, becuase I know you are. For one, you have a bloody computer you're using right now to read this. treasure every moment, no joke. What grinds my gears is when people complain that life is being a bitch.. but they don't necessarily have to live with that, they can simply change that but they choose not to.

Ok how embarrassing this post is.. uggh I'd probably delete it one day.. HORMONAL CHANGES OKE?! I'm feeling.. very.. very.. fragile at the moment. I'm going to burst out crying any moment soon.. hahaha no I'm joking. I joke a lot *ahiok*. You know what's funny? I read this whole thing over and I don't think it was exactly what I wanted out of my mind.. when I finally find what I've been wanting to let out, I'll spill it out here. This whole post just went a little out of hand hehe.

I'm sorry this post wasn't interesting :(

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